December's trading rhythm was pretty good. From 700U to 5000U, the trades went smoothly overall, although there were some anti-position moments, but each time I managed to lock in profits and cash out in time. Overall, I feel confident that I can close a good position this year.
At the end of the month, I made my first attempt at event contracts, losing 1000U in one shot. I recovered later, so I didn't touch them again. I thought that was a warning.
On the 2nd, I made another mistake—again trading event contracts. One, two, three, four times, I kept losing until over 1000U before stopping. At that moment, my mind was still very confused and not clear.
I then turned around and made long positions on Bitcoin and Ethereum, losing money and then reversing to short, even adding to the positions. Since then, I’ve been holding onto the anti-position, resisting continuously up to now. I kept selling my WET holdings to add to my positions, missed multiple opportunities to reduce or close positions, until this morning’s upward wave finally couldn’t be sustained. Afraid of losing all my funds, I closed the positions.
Looking back, it’s really a day of chopping wood and burning it. If I hadn’t opened the event contract position at noon on the 2nd, the domino effect that followed wouldn’t have happened. I wouldn’t have traded Bitcoin and Ethereum positions, wouldn’t have added to my positions, wouldn’t have kept resisting endlessly—all of it was a chain reaction. That invisible hand gradually pulled me from the light into darkness. I believe many people have experienced moments like this. What will happen next? Who can say for sure.